My journey from "religion" to freedom. From "fucked" to "unfucked".😌

After deconstructing and shedding my previous "religious" life, at the age of 40, which started off in a catholic convent, horror of horrors (on a serious note, I loved it, even wanted to become a nun, lol), I began discovering that there were all kinds of other societal beliefs, mindsets, narratives and ideologies that I had been programmed with, never thought of questioning and just followed out of default. I was not my true self. I was a robot that had been fashioned by society and the church and taught not to think or question. Now, it can be maddening because sometimes it seems the entire world is blindly entangled in a web of falsehood. George Orwell said, "Truth is treason in the empire of lies". I wonder how much of our lives are ensnared in and governed by these false beliefs, mindsets, narratives and ideologies, which are a violation of what we know through our higher awareness? If we truly divested ourselves from them, I'm guessing we would look like crazy folk to the rest of the world. As Nietasche said, "And those who were seen dancing were thought to be insane by those who could not hear the music". I have certainly found this to be true. How far was I willing to go to divest myself of the current order and live according to my newfound awareness? For me, it was as far as I needed to go. All the way. Over the edge. Everything I had ever believed in came crashing down which was a wonderful turning point for me. In the awakening process I found myself becoming aware of a whole new world that that I would never dared to have looked at before. People that I previously avoided at all costs because of their beliefs suddenly became attractive. I suddenly had a lot more tolerance for people in general no matter what their belief system, sexual orientation, fetishes, addictions etc. The only way I can describe this process is that I used to be fucked and now I am unfucked. My mind that is. Now I'm free to be myself, free to explore. I've never felt freer. The freedom that I thought I had before was actually bondage.